Hands Up, Head Bowed, MARCH ON SOLDIER!

"At the wonderful, tragic, mysterious tree, on a beautiful, scandalous night you and me were atoned by His blood, and forever washed white, on a beautiful scandalous night." ~The Robbie Seay Band "Beautiful Scandalous Night"

Ever wonder at all what happens when you pray, or what happens when you just live your life in a Godly way? Perhaps law school is making me see God in a raw and extreme way, and for that, I could not be more grateful.
In the past couple of weeks, my life has changed in a way I was not expecting.
Of course, law school IS intended to change one's life, but really?
This blog thing doesn't come naturally to me anymore, I really feel a bit violated in doing it, but, when something I say may help someone, I guess it's okay.

Here's what I've got:
Law school is not easy, but if God calls a person to something, He equips said person to do the work. In the past two weeks EVERYTHING that has EVER been something to conquer in my life has been brought to my remembrance and the attitude of NECESSARY SURRENDER has encompassed me.
I guess it's kind of this "hands up, head bowed, MARCH!" mentality. Opening my hands, bowing my head, and going forward.
I'm not going to lie to you, if you want something that's going to make you feel wonderful every day of your life, please don't come to law school, or join the legal profession. This is not to discourage you, but to submit that that in any and every calling, one will have days where it hurts to carry out the mandate bestowed upon one's head. Mighty calling is often synonymous with brutal attack, weary body, and deep breaths.
My life has been full of different, difficult, and yes, miraculous moments. One thing I am learning in THIS phase of life, though, is that sometimes in the most difficult moments of life, those moments when we sense we are exposed in the rawest of ways, we become a stronger, richer, bolder, and braver version of the person God created us to be.
As I have taken on the mantle of the 1L, I have also rendered myself willing in a measure unheard of before.
On one level, I feel things deeply, perhaps too deeply, and on another, I had been shoving them down, pretending like I didn't care to feel them. Jesus Christ, and Law school, are changing that.
In Colossians 2 the Bible talks about how Jesus took all of the ordinances that were against us and NAILED them to HIS cross. All of these things that make me ache, or that might have been stacked against me, belong to Jesus now. Of course, they are not forgettable, but become more bearable as they are dealt with in the presence and perspective of the Most High, sometimes, it hurts to breathe in life, and in law school, but if one is called by God to do something, I promise EVERY breath you take is purposeful, and EVERY moment is HIS.
Let it be, and enjoy EVERY single breath you take.
Hands up, head bowed, MARCH,
"For You oh Lord are a shield for me, my glory and the lifter of my head." Psalm 3:3
Forever Washed White,
Courtney